Thursday, May 14, 2009

Do I Even Exist Anymore?

Funny how this thing is working out. Once upon a time I could not wait to come here and talk to the world, or at least the 6 people in it I knew. I could write about nothing much at all, but I simply had to talk about it. Be it something I saw on the road, or a random thought, or something I'd done, I had to come here and tell everyone.

Not so much anymore. Oh, things still go on -- The Husband is in Florida this week; I tried putting a leash on Caliban, since Ben is enjoying his outside-on-a-leash time; my garden is fantastically beautiful and the back patio a little oasis; I'm taking a writing class online; I've just finished a bio of 18th century novelist Fanny Burney and am now reading one about Jane Austen; I watched Katharine Hepburn movies most of Tuesday; my kitchen is really disgusting and I have to clean it; same with the living room.

See? Same things I used to talk about for lines and lines. Now, I don't really think they are interesting to anyone but me. So, silence.

No, I'm not going to take the weblog down. Not even a consideration. I don't really feel like disappearing, or demonstrating my relative unimportance in the world, or a virtual suicide, or anything like that. Not really interested there, either. There's not much to complain about. I'm not angry or frustrated. It's just everything would be like this:

There is a pair of morning doves hanging around lately. They like my bird feeder, but the smaller birds chase them off. Must refill it. Lynn will probably want to walk today -- I've walked with her twice this week. Then again, it looks cloudy and might rain.

And, really, what's up with that?

And it isn't like I'm silent. I'm busy on Goodreads. I'm keeping up a lively email conversation with someone. I'm posting in my online classroom. I'm writing at least three pages of something every day.

There's just not much to be said here. Not much that can be said to whatever image I have in my head of who I am talking to. In part, it's the unspoken gag rule of The Husband's university career. I don't speak plainly because I shouldn't. That means I have little to say, because who knows what will be taken in what way and right now it matters.

I did find out yesterday that Bosszilla has bought himself a race horse.

Monday, May 04, 2009

One Year

One year ago today, I was up to my neck in cardboard boxes and stressed out cats, trying to settle into this new life. I had no idea what was ahead.

Still don't, but I'm getting a clearer picture.

I am much, MUCH overweight now -- knee problems, arm problems, attitude problems, and assorted other things have contributed. I haven't talked here about so much of it, really, but let us say this year has had its problems.

However, we celebrated the first of May on Friday by driving back to Issaqueena Falls. You can look at the pictures we took last year here. Rain has improved things a bit.

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Stepping Up or Down

The Husband's computer -- an emergency replacement when the twin to my current Acer custom job bellied up all sudden and scary one day -- is beginning to clatter and make scary noises, so he's ordered himself up a shiny new Dell with his nifty student discount. What will we do with the old one? We aren't sure yet. The last old computers we had found homes overseas and in the recycling bin, respectively, but this one is a refurbished behemoth of a laptop that seems to be developing some serious problems. Probably gift it to some struggling student to see him or her through until a new computer can be found.

The shiny side for me is that, since my lovely laptop is now nearing computer middle age (three years old! Oh no!) and has developed several keyboard peculiarities (the right side 'alt' key no longer sits correctly, for one, and I've a number of keys that require a very centered and strong tap to activate) and it has no battery power to speak of, I'm getting a little Netbook Dell Inspiron Mini. We debated the idea of just getting a new battery for Chaos (my laptop) but it is also a pain to lug around the way I am currently lugging it around. It gets REALLY hot, so I need either a lapdesk or a table for it at all times, and I'd rather just park it on its cooling pad full time. So, a fancy new Netbook is in my future. I took a look at several models, mostly for screen size and keyboard layout/size issues -- no point in buying one that I hate to type on.

It will be cherry red (wee!), with a bigger hard drive than I currently have (also !) and an external r/w CD/DVD drive and I'm thinking of names for it. In keeping with my usual computer naming scheme, it has to be either cat or disaster related (being as cats and disaster go together). The Husband's old computer was Mayhem and we've already picked a name for his new baby (Havoc).

I'm leaning toward Storm, kinda sorta.